I don’t know.

“So much has happened. 
I don’t know what to do. 

It feels like everything has changed.

I don’t know how to rebuild whats been broken.  

We’re all thinking a million things, yet so little is being said. 

I don’t know what words could help. 

Where once there was comfort, now there is distance. 

I don’t know how to get back to the way things were before. 

Before everything fell apart. 

I don’t know how things got this bad. 

It didn’t all happen at once, its been falling for years. 

I don’t know how I didn’t see it coming. 

Why are these things coming between us? 

I don’t know why things can’t be clear.

The life we once knew is over. 

I don’t know where this new life will lead. 

Will things ever be better? Or is this our new normal? 

I don’t know whats coming next, I only hope its lovelier then this.

We’ll all be alright, but alright isn’t shooting very high.

I don’t know about you, but I wanted more for everyone. 

My heart is sad and confused. 

I don’t know that my mind is much better. 

I sit wishing I knew what to do, praying, so often praying. 

I don’t know what God’s plan is in all of this. 

Sometimes I forget about the problems. I focus on my own little happy world. 

I don’t know how well I would be if I didn’t.  

But it always comes back to me, there are always reminders. 

I don’t know how to ignore it for long. 

All these things are to big for me, to much for me to fix alone. 

I don’t know if we will all work together again though. 

It makes me wonder how well we ever did. 

I don’t know the last time we were all together. 

In my memories there were days that were right, the way things should be. 

I don’t know now how right they really were. 

With everything thats happened everything feels mixed up, conversations, memories, feelings, the truth. 

I don’t know how we got here.

I don’t know how or when things will be fixed. 

I don’t know.”